No More U-Turn!

I should be writing this post tomorrow(Sunday) but as I would not be at home tomorrow, I think  it's better for me to post my weekly diary of weight loss today (Saturday 22nd of Feb '14).

Alhamdulillah, this week I loss another 3kgs. I still stick to the last week diet plan.

''NO RICE,
NO SWEET DRINK,
GO EXERCISE,
HIT THE GYM!!!''

Although my frequency of 'visit' to the gym was reducing this week due to several problems, I'm really2 grateful that there are some reduction in my weight. Currently I got a new problem with left ankle joint. Last week I did an ultrasound in PGH to see what is the lump that lie just inferior to my medial malleolus that causing numbness and kind of electric shock sensation in my left foot. Due to that, my movement is a little bit restricted. In addition, this week is a quite busy week as I have my end of rotation examination for Orthopedic.

Anyway, I'm so happy and grateful to see changes in my weight and I will not doing anymore U-Turn in this journey. So far my target is to get fit in the awesome Yamaha jacket that I bought in 2011. I used to be fit in that jacket in 2011 but now not anymore. So my short term target for now is to be in the leather jacket again, nice and fit!

A print screen pic from my 'late' facebook profile.  this time I weight about 94-95kgs. Still in obese category I think, but I manage to fit in jean with size of 38. The different is so far away from what I am right now. Can't wait to say Hellooo again to that jacket.

 
 That's all for now, let's wait for next week outcome!

I Can Do It

Thank God, I manage to lose 2 kgs this week. It is much better than nothing. For this week, I stop eating rice and substitute it with beehoon or chapati. I take fruit as snack and drink a lot of water. And of course exercise. This week I manage to go to the gym for 3 days and one day work out at home. As the next three day (Friday, Sat, and Sun) I was exhausted by the Advance Live Saving Course manage by medical school, so I consider the few hour of standing during teaching as the exercise. hehe. My legs especially the ankle joint hurt quite badly due to long hour standing.

So this Sunday (16 Feb 2014) my weight is 119kgs as compare to last Sunday which was 121kgs. I keep telling myself, I can do it!!! I can do it!!! May Allah ease my way and give me strength to keep on my journey until I reach the ideal weight target.

As a encouragement to myself, that I can reach my target, this picture always be my inspiration. This pic was taken at the end of 2011, during my short vacation to Paris. This time my weight was around 95kgs, where I've lost about 20kgs after hardwork in gym and dieting. I miss myself in the picture. And I will work and give my best effort to meet him again. :).

Weigh about 95kgs in Nov,2011. 'Hope to see this man' again sometime in the future

It takes 4 weeks for you to see your body changing, It takes 8 weeks for friends and family and It takes 12 weeks for the rest of the world! KEEP GOING

I'm The Biggest Loser!!!

Today I really think that I'm the real life biggest loser!!! What a shame! Including this time, I don't know how many times I've been like 'hangat-hangat tahi ayam' in doing my weight lost program! I feel like I'm a loser! Biggest loser on earth! Instead of losing weight, my weight is actually increase since my fourth year final exam in last October. DAMN!!!

I wrote in my previous blog that I'm gonna lose my weight and graduate with normal weight by June this year! I wrote that in August last year!. Yes I did lost some weight. But then as exam is approaching by October, I became lazier and lazier to  get out of my room, let alone go to gym and sweat my shirts! I hate this! And exam make me hungry! Staying up till late night just made me craving for food and I feel like eating everything that existed under the sun!

And today, I surprised myself after I step on the weight scale (that has become dusty as I'm afraid to use it when I stop going to the gym for few months!). Today , on 9th Feb 2014, my weight has rocketed to 121kgs, and this is my heaviest reading through out my 'obese' life! What the hell that I've done? Should I curse the exam for making me hungry and stop going to the gym or should I curse myself for not having a strong enough will power? Arrghhhh!! And to add some salt on the wound, going back to hometown for a few weeks of holidays just increase the rate of 'getting fatter'!

Sometimes I really feel that nothing can be done. I think that God just want me to be fat, and die as a fat man. Is HE??? The reason is, everytime I try to do some effort to lose weight, there must be something that will stop my effort and I will get back my previous weight, in fact more than the previous one. Huhuhu. For example, I've done half of my weight lose in 2011 where I lose 23kgs but then in Feb 2012  I got a motorcycle accident, can't move my right knee for more than a month, and I quickly regain my weight, making me give up everything that I've done!!! And I get back all the 23kgs I've lose in one year, plus more 'bonus weight'.

Today, with 121kgs in me, I need to do something. I've to get rid an amount of weight equal to a weight of a woman with normal BMI. And it is a MUST!!! I'm tired of listening to people mocking me, saying that how could I advice my patient to live a healthy life when in fact I'm living as an obese person? Since few months back, my friends do not greet me by ''How are you?'' but they greet me by saying ''Eh, you look much bigger that before''or ''eh, apsal makin bulat sekarang ni?''. And I dont know how to reply to that kind of 'greeting'!

Oh God, please help me, dont let me die as an obese person so that people do not complaint when the lift up my coffin during my funeral! Give me strength and ease my way to achieve my target as I believe everything is possible with YOUR infinite power!

First Terrible Days of 2014

Huh, I just came back from the police station after made a police report. Hopefully this is the first and last time that I've to lodge a police report about theft!

3rd and 4th of January 2014 could be a bad starter for this new year. Last night on 3rd Jan, my Abah gave me 20 ringgit as a pocket money for my journey by bus from Tnh Merah to Penang. But dam**t, I dont know how the money that I've put in my pocket has lost without trace! I guess the money 'get out' of my pocket whenever I pull out my wallet to gave the bus ticket to the driver. I just realized that the money has gone after 30minutes on the bus.

But that's still okay. Quickly I made intention that anybody found the money, I consider it as charity to that people. Maybe God took back the money as it actually belongs to someone else. So I just 'pasrahkan' je lah that 20 ringgit.

However, God test me with another one, which is more powerful that the first one. This morning on 4th Jan, as I touch my feet down at the Sg. Nibong Bus Terminal, I went to the surau to have a short nap as I totally can't sleep on the bus due to f**king crazy driver who drove the bus like a drunk a**ho*e!

It was about 5am when I got to the surau. Without any delay,  quickly fold my sweater to make it as pillow after I put my back pack just against the wall, besides my 'sweater-pillow'. It's not even a minute after I put my head on the 'pillow', I have lost in the dream.

Half an hour later, I woke up when I heard somebody start to pray. As I woke up, I noticed that my yellow back pack has gone. I quickly stood up, get out and search around the bus terminal. I'm 100% confident that some blood sucker a**ho** has taken my back! Oh sh**! I got all my important stuffs inside the back! Laptop, medical books worth hundreds of ringgit, stethoscope, few medications, and my brand new D'Herb Super Lebat Shampoo and Cream! Da*n you bloody thief! And to add more salt and acid to the wound, there is a book that I borrow from library worth 90ringgit. I borrow the book because it is not worth to buy a new one. But now, here I am, I need to replace that f**king expensive book!

Oh Allah, maybe this is due to my sins or bad deeds. Or I hope you test me like this to bring me back to the right path, to make me realize things that I've taken for granted! I believe there's always a silver lining behind every cloud!

However, this unwanted terrible events just kill my spirit to start this new and last semester of my life as medical student! Oh Tuhan, I need a new stethoscope! Pleaassseee... huk3!  

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