How It Feel to Be On A 'Nearly Crashed Airplane'' (A personal Experience of Myself)

Reading the tweets of few stupid morons and retarded young girl/boy about the MH370 tragedy just make me want to slap them till they vomit blood. How the hell you can say that is just a small matter and you mock over the people who really care about the victim? I think this kind of people need to be put on an aircraft,and then crashed the plane to the deepest sea on earth.

Let me share you my own experience of being on an aircraft that almost crashed due to severe tuburlence...

It was in Winter 2011 when 3 of my friends and me make a sudden decision to go to Belgium and The Netherlands for our short winter vacation after having our final semester exam. I was studying in Dublin, Ireland during that time. So there we are,visiting few famous place in Belgium and Holland including 'The Red Light District of Amsterdam..' Opps. p/s: We just visit, not doing anything in fact we dont even look at the girl in the glass box along the street. :P hehe.

We took a cheap return Ryan Air flight from Dublin to Brussels. Therefore our journey is like: Dublin-->Brussels---> Amsterdam--->Brussles--->Dublin. We traveled from Brussels to Amsterdam by bus. So came to the last day in Amsterdam. I told my friend that we have to go to Brussels as early as possible so that we can spend a little bit of time visiting the Grand Markt and catch the flight without rushing. However, one of my friend refuse to go with me becos he had some personal things to do. So I asked my two other friend to follow me.

In Brussels we took our flight back to Dublin without 1 friend and he really miss that flight. There we are, flying across UK and Irish Sea when suddenly our flight hit the strong turbulence. The plane shaking so bad and suddenly it went down and up like a kite that has been cut from thee rope (in Malay we say ibarat layang2 putus tali) It was so terrible. All the passengers shouting in fear as we really going to be crashed.

I saw all of the passengers  (which I believe most of them are Christian) were praying seriously. Including me and 2 friends, we prayed according to Islam way. I told my friends to recite syahadah and do a lot of zikir. One of my friends who sat beside me whispered in my ear: Aku menyesal ikut kau Mi, patut aku ikut Q***, takdelah aku ternaik flight ni. Untung Q*** terlepas flight.( I'm so regret following you, I should follow tha other friends(who missed the flight). He was lucky that he missed this flight).

I don't know what to say, I just kept quiet and repeatedly reciting the syahadah. At that time, I really felt that I'm gonna die in a plane crashed. It was so scary. Nobody to help you except the Almighty God. We kept praying and praying until about 5-10 minutes, we felt the flight has regain its stability.

You know what, when the pilot landed the flight safely, all of the passengers give a big applause and hug each other. How can't you not be so happy as you just go through a life and death situation? Only God knows how I feel during that time. That was the most terrible flight I've ever been. During the turbulence, we felt regret for visiting the Red Light District we felt we have done sins and now we gonna die without repenting. huhuhu.

But now thank you Allah that I can still sit in front of my PC and write my experience here. The accident did not kill my bravery to be on flight again, but somehow the missing of MH370 seems to make me feel afraid to be on long journey flight even I've been used to a 13-14 hours of flight from KL to UK and then Dublin.

To all morons who take this tragedy as a joke and write stupid thing, please be reminded that one day it could be yourself, your family members or close friends on a crashing/missing flight. Keep praying for MH370, may Allah save them all, may the plane being found as soon as possible.

Schwannoma, MRI and 1kg!

Okay, this week  a few significant things had happened. Last Wednesday I met the Orthopedic Oncologist and he suspected me to have Schwannoma(kind of tumor of Schwann cell that is part of our nerve).. Hmmm that's quite worrying as I need to proceed with MRI and then surgery is a must to correct that condition.

And Alhamdulillah being a medical student I have the advantages to do the MRI faster than it should be. The appointment I got last 2 week is on 4th of June, but then after I met the specialist who is my teacher when I did my ortho rotation, he manage to get the MRI being done earlier, to be specific 3 month earlier. Again Alhamduilillah...

So, tomorrow is my MRI test. The hospital staff text me to come at 7am in the morning, with IV line readily set in my hand. Oh my... So I should go to the AnE department first, get the IV line set (for contrast injection) and get into the machine.

Regarding surgery, I request my 'teacher' to do it a.s.a.p so that I wont disturbed my final exam which is approaching. And he is willing to do that as soon as I get the MRI result as he said the Operation theater is quite free for now...

Oh.. this week I just lost 1 kg. huhuhu. This is due to no 'gymming' at all for this week. I dont know why. Mybe due to my ankle condition that has became worse. And I eat rice for few times.. huhu. However there's still changes and i can't give up. Hopefully the current diagnosis of my ankle condition and the upcoming operation would not stop my determination to finish my weight lost journey. Dear Allah, please strengthen my spirit and cure the illness.

Sedikit kata2 semangat dr brader Dwayne Johnson aka The Rock. hehe

Why I Delete My Facebook Account???

Up to this date, it has been about 4 or 5 months I've been living without Facebook (and I feel very happy). Actually that was my second time deleting my FB account and I hope, that was the last and I will not create any new account after this (really need to stay strong on this as my friends keep asking me to make a new one, huhu)

Frankly speaking, I'm very active facebooker previously and most of the time my post and opinions written as my FB status got much attention/likes from my FB friends. So being lonely or being a 'nobody care about you that's why you delete the FB' is absolutely not the reason I delete my FB account. To be honest, there're few friends send me private message consoling me not to delete my FB as they like and feel entertained by my FB status.

Then, why on earth I delete my FB? Below probably some of the possible reasons to delete an FB account:
1- I hate it when people keep posting pictures of the foods they're eating. Lunch,dinner, supper and whatever foods they eat, even as simple as maggie they keep on posting them on FB. That's suck!

2-Picture of newborn baby. This is like cancer in our community, I mean worldwide community. I feel sorry to the newborn baby that born to that kind of parents who keep uploading their baby's pic every single day. The baby has been exposed to the world when they actually dont have to.

3-Too much people with narcissistic behavior. This applied to women actually. Posting pics with weird pose and so called cute face expression, and then commenting on that pic like a stupid and  desperate bitches!

4-Too much fake and fitnah news. FB is the fastest way to spread bad news about others especially about politics and everything related to it.

5-Too much time spent on FB. This could be my own weakness as my self-control power is very weak. I hate FB but when I have one, it become my 'lover'. 24 jam asyik nk berkepit je.. hehe. So, I guess I've made the right decision by divorcing her.I hate refreshing and keep rolling down my FB page for nothing but to waste my time.

6-Without FB,  feel the friendship is more real. You always have something to ask your friends that you have not meet for a long time as you don't know what is going on in their life.

7-Everything on FB is actually just a joke. Joke that sometimes people take it seriously.

8-One of the way to boycott Produk Yahudi! It was so funny when the so called 'boycott fighters' use FB to spread the campaign to boycott Jewish product by using medium created by a jew. LOL!

9-Bla.. Bla... Bla... (If you readers find this post and read it up to this point, you can share your own point on why we should not have an FB account or why you delete your FB). I have a lot more points but I dont want to write them here.

No More U-Turn!

I should be writing this post tomorrow(Sunday) but as I would not be at home tomorrow, I think  it's better for me to post my weekly diary of weight loss today (Saturday 22nd of Feb '14).

Alhamdulillah, this week I loss another 3kgs. I still stick to the last week diet plan.

''NO RICE,
NO SWEET DRINK,
GO EXERCISE,
HIT THE GYM!!!''

Although my frequency of 'visit' to the gym was reducing this week due to several problems, I'm really2 grateful that there are some reduction in my weight. Currently I got a new problem with left ankle joint. Last week I did an ultrasound in PGH to see what is the lump that lie just inferior to my medial malleolus that causing numbness and kind of electric shock sensation in my left foot. Due to that, my movement is a little bit restricted. In addition, this week is a quite busy week as I have my end of rotation examination for Orthopedic.

Anyway, I'm so happy and grateful to see changes in my weight and I will not doing anymore U-Turn in this journey. So far my target is to get fit in the awesome Yamaha jacket that I bought in 2011. I used to be fit in that jacket in 2011 but now not anymore. So my short term target for now is to be in the leather jacket again, nice and fit!

A print screen pic from my 'late' facebook profile.  this time I weight about 94-95kgs. Still in obese category I think, but I manage to fit in jean with size of 38. The different is so far away from what I am right now. Can't wait to say Hellooo again to that jacket.

 
 That's all for now, let's wait for next week outcome!

I Can Do It

Thank God, I manage to lose 2 kgs this week. It is much better than nothing. For this week, I stop eating rice and substitute it with beehoon or chapati. I take fruit as snack and drink a lot of water. And of course exercise. This week I manage to go to the gym for 3 days and one day work out at home. As the next three day (Friday, Sat, and Sun) I was exhausted by the Advance Live Saving Course manage by medical school, so I consider the few hour of standing during teaching as the exercise. hehe. My legs especially the ankle joint hurt quite badly due to long hour standing.

So this Sunday (16 Feb 2014) my weight is 119kgs as compare to last Sunday which was 121kgs. I keep telling myself, I can do it!!! I can do it!!! May Allah ease my way and give me strength to keep on my journey until I reach the ideal weight target.

As a encouragement to myself, that I can reach my target, this picture always be my inspiration. This pic was taken at the end of 2011, during my short vacation to Paris. This time my weight was around 95kgs, where I've lost about 20kgs after hardwork in gym and dieting. I miss myself in the picture. And I will work and give my best effort to meet him again. :).

Weigh about 95kgs in Nov,2011. 'Hope to see this man' again sometime in the future

It takes 4 weeks for you to see your body changing, It takes 8 weeks for friends and family and It takes 12 weeks for the rest of the world! KEEP GOING

I'm The Biggest Loser!!!

Today I really think that I'm the real life biggest loser!!! What a shame! Including this time, I don't know how many times I've been like 'hangat-hangat tahi ayam' in doing my weight lost program! I feel like I'm a loser! Biggest loser on earth! Instead of losing weight, my weight is actually increase since my fourth year final exam in last October. DAMN!!!

I wrote in my previous blog that I'm gonna lose my weight and graduate with normal weight by June this year! I wrote that in August last year!. Yes I did lost some weight. But then as exam is approaching by October, I became lazier and lazier to  get out of my room, let alone go to gym and sweat my shirts! I hate this! And exam make me hungry! Staying up till late night just made me craving for food and I feel like eating everything that existed under the sun!

And today, I surprised myself after I step on the weight scale (that has become dusty as I'm afraid to use it when I stop going to the gym for few months!). Today , on 9th Feb 2014, my weight has rocketed to 121kgs, and this is my heaviest reading through out my 'obese' life! What the hell that I've done? Should I curse the exam for making me hungry and stop going to the gym or should I curse myself for not having a strong enough will power? Arrghhhh!! And to add some salt on the wound, going back to hometown for a few weeks of holidays just increase the rate of 'getting fatter'!

Sometimes I really feel that nothing can be done. I think that God just want me to be fat, and die as a fat man. Is HE??? The reason is, everytime I try to do some effort to lose weight, there must be something that will stop my effort and I will get back my previous weight, in fact more than the previous one. Huhuhu. For example, I've done half of my weight lose in 2011 where I lose 23kgs but then in Feb 2012  I got a motorcycle accident, can't move my right knee for more than a month, and I quickly regain my weight, making me give up everything that I've done!!! And I get back all the 23kgs I've lose in one year, plus more 'bonus weight'.

Today, with 121kgs in me, I need to do something. I've to get rid an amount of weight equal to a weight of a woman with normal BMI. And it is a MUST!!! I'm tired of listening to people mocking me, saying that how could I advice my patient to live a healthy life when in fact I'm living as an obese person? Since few months back, my friends do not greet me by ''How are you?'' but they greet me by saying ''Eh, you look much bigger that before''or ''eh, apsal makin bulat sekarang ni?''. And I dont know how to reply to that kind of 'greeting'!

Oh God, please help me, dont let me die as an obese person so that people do not complaint when the lift up my coffin during my funeral! Give me strength and ease my way to achieve my target as I believe everything is possible with YOUR infinite power!